Wednesday 26 November 2014

You are wrong, because I am right....or perhaps not

 

   Sometime you just lose connection, it goes. 
   You are sad, because you felt like you were so close and that person was so special, but then it went. 
   You are trying to talk, but all you do is argue or they seem to completely misread you. 
   You want to help, but it seems like instead of helping them you are pushing them away. 

    One thing is definitely it takes two to tango....if that other person wants to be there on the other side...then leave them be
    If they really are true to you they will come back and they will be honest. 
    One thing I never got or understood is when people start to lie or pretended to be your friend. 
    Why do this? We are not in the movie and no one cares if you were not polite to me on Saturday morning. Why be overly polite to the point it's almost sickly polite? We both know that is not you, we both know it is extremely fake? What is the deal in it? What the hell are you hiding from me? I am sorry but it almost feels like you are faking something.....I am being polite with you because we live in society with high moral standards.....oh come off it, we were friends once now we are just strangers.....
I feel like I don't know you....
    However I will leave that person to be whoever they want to be. Who am I to know what is best? If this is what they think is right then I will wish them only happiness and hope that the path they chosen will only bring them goodness.
 Sad though that in our society people chose to run when it comes to trusting someone. They prefer to hide and deal with the world on their own. Maybe it is best for them. I can not judge again here.
   At the end of the day I will trust you more if you are honest with me then if you chose to ignore me and this is not because I want to be nasty to you, because I chose safety rather then mystery. 
  So I believe friendship comes from trust, trust come from experience.....I guess not all experiences are nice, but I don't think you should judge everyone same and think that everyone out there wants to get you. Again forgiveness and trust should always remain....I think
   It takes two to tango.
   It takes two to be there for each other and feel each other's pain. 
   It takes two to want to be together. 
   If the other one wants to run, let them do it, because they may not be the right person for you and you should let them be free. If they come back and try to talk to you then maybe there is still a hope and they do care, perhaps they were just lost and needed time.
  Unconditional friendships only works then when in any condition you try your hardest to be there for your friend, friend won't ask for it, but you should remember it. If you can't give to our people and chose to be on your own then maybe you should be on your own. Although love is not about loving yourself, real love is about loving and giving to others without a condition :) 
 Anyways those are my thoughts for today....right or wrong who knows, they may change in a space of a week, we grow and we learn. I'm not perfect I am learning to understand world everyday. 

A letter to her....


   One day I looked back and I thought to myself how good that you had happened. 
   One day I looked at my life and I said you took away something I did not need, but thought I needed. 
   One day I remembered your face and I thought why was I so angry at you then you in fact brought so much happiness and wisdom into my life. Why was I ever angry at you? 
   You deserve all my forgiveness, because no matter what will happen in the future as we only live one day at the time I have already realised that he was never my person and he would never make me happy. We are way too different and we would fall apart anyway. 

   Why do we get angry with man who cheat on us, we should thank him for leaving us to someone else who is exactly the right person for us. Why would you want to ever be with a man who is thinking of someone else while he with you? That person is deeply confused in what he wants and you must be happy that he chose to go with someone else. 

   One day I will write that letter and say thank you for taking something I did not need because I never needed it. I don't know what will happen in future but you made me happy because I found myself through sadness and emptiness. I am not scared of being left by myself because I found me and I am very happy with myself. So thank you.  


Messy thoughts


   Sometimes there is me and my emotions. 
   Sometimes I should ignore my head all together. 

   Sometimes I feel like I need to talk to someone much older then me and more experience.
   Will this make a difference though? I don't think so but it feels right somehow. 

   Oh woman we should just stop thinking and do something, in my case draw. 

   Sometimes I just lost and then found in seconds.
   Does any of this make sense, no I don't think so or maybe yes it does 
   Woman we are so different, we are lost, we are so found, we are so artistic

   Woman we need man to calm ourselves down 
   Woman we need man so they can love us for who we are 

   I know what you thinking now....I am drunk and having here a moment 
   No I am not drunk :)