Girl and the rabbit

I think today realised the importance to believe in yourself and your ability when I created this little girl and her rabbit. 

She is cute and beautiful and she is holding this rubbit so he can protect her and at same time make noticeable. 

I have realised that my art tells my story more. I don't think I never drew without a message inside of my art. I always wanted to say something. I can now. 

I draw because I love to create, but I also draw for attention and reaction, I want to know what people feel when they see that image...are they happy? Are they sad? Do they recognise my signature in it? 

I can because I can even recognise the way my lines shaped in it...my left hand worked hard on them lol I can recognise it because this image sat in my head after being inspired by work of a few other very talented illustrators which I follow online. 

Artist or illustrator no matter who you are and no matter how but your work comes from your knowledge and what you see around you. 

You should stop caring about other people opinion and just believe in your talent, let it come out, let it be you. Let it out, don't be scared, get inspired! 

Forgiveness

So I often ask myself a question are those who hurt us will hunt us forever if not forgiven? I think now I know that the true answer and only answer is yes. By being upset on someone over something they said or done you only end up hurting yourself. I am not less of the person if they no longer part of my life or they chose to be only partially involved in it. People make their own choices. I should not blame them for anything I should just let them go in my mind and forgive them for making them those choices. I can not judge then although sometimes it is extremely hard not to do. I should just think that if they were wrong in something or did something bad to me this will in their conscious. I forgive them and wish them happiness. I forgive them because maybe it was not a mistake maybe it had to be done. I forgive them that for a short or long while, but they showed me something new, they helped somewhere and somehow and for that alone they deserve to be forgiven. I get upset a lot as I am very sensitive person however I must remember that being upset is not going to be solution for them. In certain age I have come to realise that forgiveness is the key to happiness and harmony. I have a lot to learn still about this, however I am happy for today and thankful that today I had this thought in my head.

You are wrong, because I am right....or perhaps not

 

   Sometime you just lose connection, it goes. 

   You are sad, because you felt like you were so close and that person was so special, but then it went. 

   You are trying to talk, but all you do is argue or they seem to completely misread you. 

   You want to help, but it seems like instead of helping them you are pushing them away. 

    One thing is definitely it takes two to tango....if that other person wants to be there on the other side...then leave them be

    If they really are true to you they will come back and they will be honest. 

    One thing I never got or understood is when people start to lie or pretended to be your friend. 

    Why do this? We are not in the movie and no one cares if you were not polite to me on Saturday morning. Why be overly polite to the point it's almost sickly polite? We both know that is not you, we both know it is extremely fake? What is the deal in it? What the hell are you hiding from me? I am sorry but it almost feels like you are faking something.....I am being polite with you because we live in society with high moral standards.....oh come off it, we were friends once now we are just strangers.....

I feel like I don't know you....

    However I will leave that person to be whoever they want to be. Who am I to know what is best? If this is what they think is right then I will wish them only happiness and hope that the path they chosen will only bring them goodness.

 Sad though that in our society people chose to run when it comes to trusting someone. They prefer to hide and deal with the world on their own. Maybe it is best for them. I can not judge again here.

   At the end of the day I will trust you more if you are honest with me then if you chose to ignore me and this is not because I want to be nasty to you, because I chose safety rather then mystery. 

  So I believe friendship comes from trust, trust come from experience.....I guess not all experiences are nice, but I don't think you should judge everyone same and think that everyone out there wants to get you. Again forgiveness and trust should always remain....I think

   It takes two to tango.

   It takes two to be there for each other and feel each other's pain. 

   It takes two to want to be together. 

   If the other one wants to run, let them do it, because they may not be the right person for you and you should let them be free. If they come back and try to talk to you then maybe there is still a hope and they do care, perhaps they were just lost and needed time.

  Unconditional friendships only works then when in any condition you try your hardest to be there for your friend, friend won't ask for it, but you should remember it. If you can't give to our people and chose to be on your own then maybe you should be on your own. Although love is not about loving yourself, real love is about loving and giving to others without a condition :) 

 Anyways those are my thoughts for today....right or wrong who knows, they may change in a space of a week, we grow and we learn. I'm not perfect I am learning to understand world everyday. 

A letter to her....

   One day I looked back and I thought to myself how good that you had happened. 

   One day I looked at my life and I said you took away something I did not need, but thought I needed. 

   One day I remembered your face and I thought why was I so angry at you then you in fact brought so much happiness and wisdom into my life. Why was I ever angry at you? 

   You deserve all my forgiveness, because no matter what will happen in the future as we only live one day at the time I have already realised that he was never my person and he would never make me happy. We are way too different and we would fall apart anyway. 

   Why do we get angry with man who cheat on us, we should thank him for leaving us to someone else who is exactly the right person for us. Why would you want to ever be with a man who is thinking of someone else while he with you? That person is deeply confused in what he wants and you must be happy that he chose to go with someone else. 

   One day I will write that letter and say thank you for taking something I did not need because I never needed it. I don't know what will happen in future but you made me happy because I found myself through sadness and emptiness. I am not scared of being left by myself because I found me and I am very happy with myself. So thank you.  

Messy thoughts

   Sometimes there is me and my emotions. 

   Sometimes I should ignore my head all together. 

   Sometimes I feel like I need to talk to someone much older then me and more experience.

   Will this make a difference though? I don't think so but it feels right somehow. 

   Oh woman we should just stop thinking and do something, in my case draw. 

   Sometimes I just lost and then found in seconds.

   Does any of this make sense, no I don't think so or maybe yes it does 

   Woman we are so different, we are lost, we are so found, we are so artistic

   Woman we need man to calm ourselves down 

   Woman we need man so they can love us for who we are 

   I know what you thinking now....I am drunk and having here a moment 

   No I am not drunk :) 

  

New friend!

Life is brilliant when you meet new people but it is even better when those people stick around to share your life with you! 

I am very happy now as I have met this lovely and adorable girl! She is very open and honest person! Hard to meet people like this these days! 

I consider myself very lucky! 

So if you are feeling lonely, don't be right people will find you or you will find them sooner or later! Life is good like this. 

I know someone will read this and think that at the start we all having honeymoon period and it will go away at the end. Yes I agree things may change in a year, but friendships like any relationships, they require work and compromising. We are all in love with each other and we can still be in love with each other if we work on it. 

All you need is to give without expecting anything back and be there for your friends when they need you the most. Don't play games. Don't mess about with their feelings. Listen to their needs and never be selfish or at least try to listen to yourself and what you are saying to them :) 

Well all can be good friends, but can we be real friends who prepared to open their heart to each other and really invite someone in?! 

Fake friendships won't last long. Time will show eventually who those people are. 

I believe the most important is to always listen to your heart. Your heart will tell you who is honest with you and who is not. 

Good luck with your old and new friendships guys! Hard work is really rewarding! So love your friends as you chose them to be your friends! :) 

Change the world.

Each of us was born with a purpose. Each of us is good at something. We all have dreams and we must follow them. If we see the opportunity use it and make it work. Each of us is brave enough to become someone big and do exactly what we love. Make money but from something we love. Make money but get them from making other people happy. 

My new idea is not crazy. It is idea that has been on my mind for a long time. I want to create cute things, I want to give them character and sell them to children. Watching recent news events I have realised that when I was small world was full of cute little animals that protected me from my nightmares. I knew they would save me. This was the only thing I was scared of. I never had to be scared of being bombed, running low on food and constantly running away. I never had to understand any of that as I had my childhood and as a child I had a right on save and happy life. 

However today we have wars in the world that scary and ugly. Those wars destroys not only childhood that scars kids for life. They remove all run and place it with fears and ugliness. We have to remember that every child that being born in this world has perfect right to their save and happy childhood. No matter what race or nationality that child is. Every child have a right to be happy and to feel save in their own town or city. Unfortunately wars take away this from children and they destroy every child's right. 

I always wanted to do something good. Right now I want to create a toy that can make every child feel secure and save no matter where they are. I know it is only the toy and I can't save the world from wars, it is not in my hands. However what I can do is to give children a hope by creating that toy. 

It is decided this is gonna be my new project and I am gonna work on it damn hard as I wan for it to come true. 

Tomorrow is day one.